Originally Posted by
CharlesJones
LOL. Naw i'm not a street dude. I've never hung out in the streets and on the corner hustling because that's not me and plus i'm not wasting my life in jail or prison. Being homeless scares me because i could've been that 6 years ago. Finding a good job was very frustrating for me because i got tired of applying for jobs and nobody was calling me. Plus it was hard for me to get to a job to apply for it riding the bus because i couldn't afford a car. I wanted to kill myself during that point in my life because having no money and being unemployed drives me crazy. That's why i don't understand how homeless people continue to live everyday like they do because if i was homeless, i'd kill myself because i'd rather be dead than living on the streets and poor. Jobs aren't trying to hire homeless people unless it's a low paying job and i don't even think low paying jobs like fast food places, grocery stores, drug/pharmacy stores, Target, Walmart, janitorial/cleaning would hire homeless people. I know that a lot of homeless people have mental problems, drug users, alcoholics but some of them aren't like that. I believe the ones that aren't like that, if they had a place to stay, they should be able to get a job and they should get job training so they can get jobs that pay a high salary instead of a low salary because most people don't wanna work for a low salary.
I know ya'll don't believe me when i tell you i have a learning disability but i'm not lying about this because i've been doing research about it and i'm not doing research on purpose. I'm doing research about it because this is a serious problem for me and it took me a long time to figure out that something is wrong with me mentally because i kept losing jobs in the past and i had never applied for a high paying job because i'm afraid of good paying jobs because those jobs are challenging for me. I've never been good at having my brain challenged and figuring things out so that's why i've never had a good job. I want a good paying job but i'm afraid of applying for one because i'm afraid i'll get fired because of my lack of brain skills. Supervisors aren't gonna tell employees that are slow learners how to do their job over and over again because they feel like since they hired you and they trained you on what to do several times, you should get the hang of it and be able to do your job position on your own. Because if you can't figure out how to do your job, then they'll hire somebody else who can do the job.
My brother and i have been talking about going to see several psychiatrists to see what's wrong with me. If i do get diagnosed and i'm not able to work, then i'll probably be able to get a disability check even though i know it won't be enough money for me to take care of myself and that's what bothers me. I would still like to be able to keep my full time job i have now if i did get a disability check and there's a way i can work and get a disability check because i read about it when i got a letter from the social security company that says you have to make a certain amount of money at your job if you still wanna work and get a disability check. My social security letter i got said i would get a disability check that's $889 a month if i stopped working because of a disability.