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I got high at an Asian parlor. I'm surprised I didn't go to jail.
Happiness is not having the materialistic shit in life that bogs you down, its being comfortable with your self, your family, your loved ones. Its not rushing or always having to catch up. Happiness is knowing you are loved, knowing you are cared for knowing someone is there for you. Happiness is not worrying about bull shit not stressing over small shit. Happiness is good health and good friends. Happiness is living and experiencing the now, not worrying about yesterday not contemplating tomorrow. Happiness is being present. For me its the small convo's i have with my children or my sister or my wife or my mom or my bro or my dad or a friend. Happiness is playing a board game of scrabble regardless of who wins its the time you spend with that person. Happiness is forgetting about other peoples opinion and not caring how people judge you. Happiness is speaking your mind. Happiness is spontaneity. Happiness is a good work out and sore muscles. Happiness is seeing my dog go nuts when I come home and he greets me in the yard. Happiness is taking a stroll after dinner.
Well I just found out that I have a learning disability which is making it hard for me to get a full time job. One of the symptoms of a learning disability is having a hard time getting and keeping a job and that's definitely me. I'm afraid of applying for challenging jobs that pay good money because I'm afraid I can't do the work when I haven't even tried to learn it. Most job supervisors don't have the patience to teach people jobs and they're only looking for people who are qualified who can do the job. Plus there's too many foreigners in Maryland and Virginia especially Hispanics and Africans and white men job supervisors would rather hire them for cheap labor over blacks. That's why I'm considering moving back to Cleveland because there aren't a lot of foreigners there. I'll probably have a better chance of getting a job there. Only type of work I'm good at doing is cleaning and porter work and the Hispanics here are taking those jobs. I'm gonna apply for welfare and do some reading about SSI money to see if I qualify for that until I can find a job. If I don't get a full time job soon, I'm gonna end up homeless and without a car. I need a car to find a job here because most of the jobs are far away from where I live and it would be difficult for me to find a job riding the bus.
The Hound, I don't understand why you're laughing about being unemployed and getting money from the government. There's nothing funny about being unemployed. Nobody should have to struggle looking for a job and nobody should be poor. Nobody should also be depending on the government to give them money so they can live. It's really a messed up world and it's sad that so many poor people are unemployed, getting government money and living in a bad neighborhood. Most poor and unemployed people will live like that until they die and that's sad.
I was doing some reading about it yesterday and one of the symptoms is trying to get and keep a job. That's something that I struggle with. That's why I've never applied for challenging jobs that pay good money because I'm afraid I can't do the work. Another symptom of a learning disability is not being able to focus and concentrate which is another problem I have. That's the reason why I didn't go to college because I don't like school. I have a hard time studying for tests and doing homework. I'm not good at a lot of school subjects. Only school subjects I was good at was basic math, English, history. There's nothing wrong with admitting this and I don't care if ignorant people laugh at me because there's nothing funny about this.
I believe ignorant black men have this problem and they're scared to admit it because they think people are gonna laugh at them. That's why so many ignorant black men that are in school are afraid to go to their teachers and ask for help when they don't understand something because they're worried about their ignorant friends laughing at them. I was afraid to go to my teachers and ask for help and I definitely didn't wanna tell my dad about my problem because he would be very negative about it. That's why I talked to my mom about it yesterday because I knew she would be understanding and positive.
There could be many things that cause those two things. Not sure how easy it is to have in your country but you can have tests done to see if you have a learning disability.
You're right, there's nothing wrong with admitting it, it might even be to your advantage as some employers employ a certain percentage of disabled in their workforce.
Well it would be hard for me now to get tested to see if I have a learning disability because I don't have medical insurance since I don't have a full time job. I'm gonna call Maryland social services office tomorrow to apply for welfare and I'm gonna read about SSI money to see if I qualify for that.
Well I just did some reading about SSI and I won't be able to qualify for it because I have to be outta work for 12 months. Meaning that I have to get hurt on the job in order to get SSI money or I have to be unemployed for 12 months to get SSI money.
charles jones, I thought you mentioned a while ago that you have a learning disability?