i've dated a lot of girls in my days, been in love a few times, sometimes happily and sometimes unreceived. this year i'm 30 and been single for about 6 months or somehting like that, before that it was about a year with a girl that i became quite obsessed over, i really felt like she and me should've been together bc we felt like soulmates if there ever is such a thing.. instead she chse some disusting piece of shit with half my brain, bigger muscles and more money.
since my last relationship (which ended because i basically tried to force myself to love this poor girl and make it work while i really had no strong feelings more than i liked being around her and the sex was good). she was totally in love so it felt like shit to have to break it toher and really did a number on her.
but that's just some background, as i grow older, wiser and knows myself a lot better it is EXTREMELY hard to find a hot girl that has the same interests and are compatible. another thing is that in work situations and the likes, every single fucking time i meet someone who i'm instantly interestedin (like really interested in), she of cours has a boyfriend.
and the younger girls i talk with (and some of the older ones as well) are dumb as fuck to put it bluntly.. obsessed with material shit, the worst taste in movies ("Fast and the Furious" and Hollywoo d junklike that", the worst taste in music (only current mainstream shit basically) and most of their interests are not compatible with mine.. i have a good job with a steady income and i'm not one of those types that NEED to have vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv a girlfriend.
i mean of course no person is 100% alike and will like all the shit the same, but i like being alone, being able to always chose what to do, when to do it, what to listen to, etc. music is the most important thing in my life so to have a girl that don't fuck about good music how hard that would be not to be able to play my recors or play like one of mine then one of hers, etc.
i like being alone in many ways, but of course i sometimes miss having a gigood girl to come home to after work or meet on th4 weekenew (Ihad a few distance relationsip and that was right up my alley). also sex with hooker or with some radnom chick you meet at bar or whatever is a nce feeling. but making love to someone that you love with all your heart is one of the best experiences you can hove, no doubt, so that i really miss.
and i won't lower my standards, it's a beautiful girl or i much rather be alone.. if there's no strong physical attracion we might as ell be friends. sorry for the long winded post but these girls makes me crazy most of the time lol
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