The thing that disgusts me about cutting myself that deep the most is how at peace i felt at after doing it. I calmly talked to the police through the door for 15 minutes before i came outside. Then i made them wait till someone went inside and rolled me a cigarette then i smoked it all before we went to the hospital. The phone was completely dead when i got there and i made them let me charge it up enough to take that picture before they stitched ne up. The only thing that hurt was the novacane. I had no plans of doing that it happened in the moment thats how im gonna die at some point unless i get a record deal: nit only do i not get paid for this shit but it costs me everything. Im not happy about being here