Originally Posted by Razorsharp
"Who's the wickedest, street officialist, Guess, Gortex
Lex is the crispiest, ice the vidiculous
Peep and look, the unexplainable'll keep ya shook
High illism, the realism got you hooked" AZ - Doe or Die (Rza Remix)
BUMP... haha
Throw Ya W's Up!
Propz To Sean For Kickin' The God A Siggy
thanks
for the post ..and damn when u loose a member man u start seeing other drop too ....
wierd
but yea were in maryland
R.I.P TO UR UNCLE I AM SORRY FOR UR LOSE GOD IS WITH U SO PLEASE BE STRONG IN THESE HARD TIMES
this is what im going threw too
and my aunt see couldnt eat eather but 2 day she ate dinner and chilld downsatirs wit the fam
but wed day is gonna be a bad day
for her and the kids
.....
i miss my unc..man ..very hard worker
70 hr a week yo
crazy and when he isnt working he is help some one with thier car
he would never say no to nobody
if they needed somthing doen he would do it
....
i choke up ever time i sit in my car
i bumb the subs
and start thinking..this man did this for me
he put my system in
he injoyed it
im chocking up right now just typing that shit yo
damn
now when i walk in my cuz house its gonna be dif
i am thier every day
since ever
i love him so much
and i know he is in a good place
.....
here is a lil story
man was a weed smoker haha
lights up ery day in his room
i would just walk up and inhail
haaaa
good
haha
so were all out camping the whole fam me and my to oldest cuz witch one was his son
i was getting ready to go to bed he comes up to his son hands him a joint hahaha
crazy man
we smoked that shit
lol
good man
he was
and thanks for peeps showing support
peace all
ill be back on full time on friday
lol
Last edited by 100pr00f; 03-20-2006 at 08:49 PM.
fo sho son
im real close to my cuzents
and today
man was a hard one for me ..i was upstairs with him and his mom in his room he was flipping a lil his mom trying her best
and then he says
on sunday when i was flipping out in the morn
my hart was ripped..but then u come in
in u just the site of u bro
filled my hart
and i stop flipping
....
sarts tugging on my leg
and i was balling after that i coulndt respond so i told him to stand and we huged for a good min
and after that he stoped flipping
i will allways be thier like i allways was...ur my cuz shit my bro..were blood
then me and and his mom hugged and she said thanx for every thing
....i got my man to eat all his meals
sunday when no one was eating i got him to eat din
...
i feel for the man
and today
a good friend of the fam made pics for ery one
and he got one along with a key chain it sain #1 daddyo
on it what he he called him
man he had some tears and so did i
..ahhh
but life go's on
i got to get back to work i wish i could be back home but i need to work
peace and thanks all
keep your head up brother
peace
hmm.... i lost my dad when i was 11 and my mom 2 yrs ago... after a long struggle.... Parkinson and some other shit.... anyway, i handled that well, but still, it was shit, i felt like it's all in vain, nahmsayin... i didn't have a reason to live... and then.... just when i thought the shit couldn't get bigger, i met this wonderful girl, and we fell in love. and now, 7 months later it's still wonderful. so what i'm tryin to say is that they can still find happiness even if they've got tons of problems.... just stick together and fight, nahmsayin. peace
my Condolences to you and your family..its hard when someone so giving is gone...Let out the pain man don't let it eat at you allowyaself to get it out he's watching from above and would only wish you guys the best...BuildStrong...PeacecaeP
i feel u man
u had it pretty bad siu know how my cuz feels
yea he is just shaking all the time..and i am glad he is letting it out too
its gonna be a hard struggle with life and money and all
ima be thier the best i can
thanks for the post
peace
fo sho
im letting it out
but my thing is the oldest sone aint
and he has a lot of weight on his shoulders now
with bieing the main breadmaker...no more playing around
i really feel for him he is gonna be a mess for a long time
and thanks for ur post most appreciated
peace
Proof ,
Sorry to hear about the recent lost in the family. The number one thing to do is have them vent daily. Ask them how do they feel constantly. Make sure that they eat. Let them break down when they need to break down. Only stay on topics they want to stay on ... because if they keep bringing up a "certain" something, they are probably trying to tell you something. Trust me i've drowned in depression before listen for keywords.
If they request to be alone , let them be alone but check up on the them every 5 mins or so ... nothing longer then 10 intervals. If one happens to be speaking about suicide , continue to probe the situation to make sure they are not capable of commiting suicide. Trust me all i wanted to do was smoke trees all day.. Let them deal with the death as best as they could. Lend your undying support and continue to check up with them as frequently as possible. **Most important** Make sure you are never too bizzy for them. If they need to talk to you ... drop everything even if your making money. For them drop anything and everything they need you at this point the most.. You will balance them out... peace yo .. much love n support in this situation .... P.e.a.c.e.
Phace..
if you need me holla at my p.m. family.
and once again sorry to hear about your lost.
Pr00f God bless ya man. All you can do is stay strong, I lost a mad amount of people at a young age, biggest shock was my cousin at 18 last year, lost mates to murders we still donno nuttin about, drugs, uncles, cousins, and of course my granda. My granda been the sorest to me, I was 12 when he passed and I cried that day like a bitch, and never cried or will never cry again. Coz I quickly found the tears done fuck aw, that although God gave us life, he lets life manifest itself. Sorta like your no supposed to help an animal in the wild wi food n shit, but you know you want to, I reckon Gods like that wi life, and only in extreme circumstances does he intervene. When he doesnt intervene the shits meant to happen so all you can do is accept it and say thats life. Move on but never forget. Use yer losses to muster strength for everytin else you do in life fae that day on. And eventually you gonna be joined later again should you do yersel justice. Peace!
Peace!
Peace bbm, 002 100pr00f i'm sorry for your loses.
Like punch in said at the start 100pr00f, being their emotionally for your cuz' is the best thing you can do for right now. I'm real sorry for your families loss. I like 002 lost my dad when I was 10, before my 11th birthday. He passed suddenly, there had been mad shit in my family before that though, and it was very unexpected, I wasn't even with him when he passed. That was horrible to think. He passed away on my mum's birthday, which is shit. I have an older brother, so I know what you are talking about when you say that your older cousin is feelin like he needs to be the breadwinner, and step up, and be the 'man' now, that's what it was like for my bro. He too didn't grieve much, he kept it all inside, and until last year, he broke down completely, in a very bad way, but it's cos of what he went through...it's long. For me, when my dad passed, it was I guess a shock more than anything, being young at the time, I never in my wildest dreams imagined that I would lose a parent, and I did. My mum was a broken woman, through and through. It was an incredibley hard and sad time, and I felt so much pain I've never felt before, I remember I used to sit and wonder when I would see him again, as I felt I never got to say goodbye to him...I wasn't with him when he passed, we just got a phone call..telling us to come. I can still my mum's face when we were in the hospital, she just screamed to us with tears running down her face what had happened. Man....it was hard. You know, it was silly, cos I used to see people afar on the streets, and have to check twice, as my mind was playing tricks on me, and I thought I'd seen my dad. ah, it was horrible. The day he passed, I didn't cry, and at his funeral I didn't. I thought there was something wrong with me, I remember looking around and seeing my mum and brother in tears, and I thought, why aren't I crying? Every person deals with death and grief in a different way. For my brother, he bottled it up, and then he kind of exploded, but he has come through that, and is stronger for it. For me, I'm not too sure, man, it's incredible, I turned 21 in December, so it was like..I thought to myself, I have now lived half my life with my dad, and half without..it's crazy to think. He never saw me finish school, start uni, and I graduate this summer, he won't be there, he wasn't there to see me turn 18, or 21....it's crazy. I miss him so much, when I was little, I always used to think of him, I never wanted to forget him. The crazy thing was, that he had bought me a china doll for my 11th birthday before he passed away. When my mum gave that to me, maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan....it was hard. I still think about him, not as much, but I do, and I could never forget him, I wish I had had more time to spend with him, but everything you experience and go through makes you stronger, it makes you who you are. I'm one of those people who believes everything happens for a reason. My family was in no way happy before my dads passing, but it doesn't take away what he was to me, but I'm sure it happened like it was supposed to. When I saw him lying there in the hospital, he was so cold, i touched his hand, and his face, and he looked blue....he looked just like he was sleeping. We also got to see him in the chapel, thats one thing I will never forget, he looked so at peace....and that room in the hospital, I'll never forget it. Nothing has struck me as hard as that in my life.
A years ago, I lost a lady in my life, she was like, a second mother to me. That was insane, she worked with my mum, and they were best friends. Her death was sudden, she passed in 2005 Valentine's day. I didn't believe it when I was told, at all, it was horrible, as I'm in university, and my mum and brother were at home, it was horrible. Time stood still for me, and the world passed me by, I felt time standing still at home, but in the city I'm in uni at, things just carried on, noone felt what I felt. This lady suddenly just dropped down and died. She didn't know, but she had a brain tumor. She had been complaining for a few months of headaches to my mum, but just kept taking paracetamol for it, and then, she was home alone and was found by her son. Ah...it was horrible. I went back home for the funeral, and it was the longest train journey of my life, I remembered the pain I felt all those years ago for my dad, nothing had ever touched that, till now. I felt most sorry for my mum, after dad, she was left to raise us, although myself and my bro grew up very quickly to help her. But again, my mum was left broken, I could see her...I was doing ok at the funeral service for this lady, but when I saw my mum in tears, my heart broke, and I lost it...she was in such pain, and I couldn't help her, that is the worst feelin in the world.
Losing my dad made me more appreciative of my mum, and aware that no one is immortal. In the last few years, my mum has been diagnosed with a rare heart condition, for which she is being treated, and is having an operation for. When I heard that, man.....She herself was taken into hospital when she had a blood clot in her heart, that was insane. That was the first time I saw my brother break down......and when you see that shit.......damn. The one person, who you always saw as strong...my brother, he just broke down, and couldn't keep it together at all, he was/is so scared of losing my mum. He turned to me and said to me, that he was sorry that he wasn't stronger, cos when he looked at me, he could see it in me. Man, to hear that....to hear your older brother sayin that is too much. I can't even explain. Since then, I've kind of tried to make myself aware again of the fact that nobody is on this earth forever, and it is inevitable that we will lose someone. That thought alone is too much for me right now, but you get through it, all the heart ache, and tears, and you see life for what it really is, and learn to appreciate things more, something like death puts everything into perspective, and shows you how silly little things are really insignificant in the big picture of life. You never know what you have untill it's gone, thats what I kept thinking throughout my early years, so now I appreciate the people that mean something to me in my life, and am glad for eveyday I have them in my life.
you are doing the right thing for your family, with your little cuz, thats right you can only be there for him, in anyway you can. With your older cuz, remember everyone experiences grief in different ways, and just try and be there if and when he needs to let it out, some people deal with it better than others, there is no right or wrong way. I feel you totally. (sorry for the longness)
so yemman totally agreew ith razor, music has gotten me thru alot, and still does
Peace and god bless to you and your family, you will come through this and find happiness again.
Last edited by urban_angel; 03-21-2006 at 10:09 PM.
Peace to all. I'm sorry for your family members. Keep your head up! Death, for me, is my ultimate phobia...
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