The Lie Of The Madness

[Jay_Cross [7th sun]]

The Lie of the Madness

When you lie in your bed and cry...
When the shame turns to the strangling tie...
When everybody pushes and you wanna quit...
When you think about what you did...
Kill, hurt and get into the endless scramble,
Release your hate and anger!!!
It's just the begining of this bloody hike...
Smash and destroy If you like!!!
The life's a bitch and never backs you up...
In the end of the day you always say:"What the fuck..?"
It shows you a chance and then burns It down...
Everyday somebody puts you on the fool's crown...
Everyday you fight the war you can't win...
Everyday life pricks all over your heart with a small pin..!
You always see the same lier crew...
And after all It can really blow off your roof...
When fucks your empty brain,
When every friend becomes the Cain...
It really fucks up and piss you off!
Tell me how... To heal those wounds... This endless blood's flow?
Sometimes It hurts more than makes mad...
I don't need your help and stupid twaddle!!!
You can't do anything for me...
You can't save and let me see...
So better get away from my eyes!!!
Before on your head knock falling tiles!!!
Don't blow me the bullshit smoke!!!
I know the truth - my brain awoke!!!
Enough empty words and silly phrases!!!
Let's destroy those lying mazes!!!
Break invisible wall and run away!!!
The only truth is what you say!!!
Have It in your head and never give It up...
Have It before you'll be dead and never shut up...

It's not rap for those who don't believe...
It's not true for those who bleed...
It's not my voice...
It's the truth...
It's the choice...

(Don't believe the truth...)

[Jay_Cross [7th sun]]

The Empty Head

Running down the street with empty head,
After everything you left me and said...
That I'm so strange and complicated,
After all my soul strenght dedicated,
I left here broken, defeated and hated...
Burnt down in hell everything I've created,
All my feelings and deeds locked and isolated,
All my quests for you which were debated...
You blew out into small metal dust...
But I never said: "I must!"
To say sorry and bring you back...
Never shouted on you and gave a smack,
After all sentences about my brain sack,
About my pain and why I'm acting wack...
Suns and moons behind the story,
And suicide's blood glory...
I'm here so you may don't worry,
Don't hide and deny that you're whory!
I know all about those fucking features,
I know about your inside creatures...
You know what is the faith breaching?!
A knive into your back when you're sleeping...
So I'll just lie in my empty bed,
With my empty and drained head...
With the fact that I was shed...
Lying here like undead...
Praying God to make the end...
To forget what she meant...
To take a rest in his hands...
To find those Heaven lands...
And don't nerve no more again,
And don't feel this fucking strain...
Just lie in my bed with empty head,
Just try to stop crying and forget,
This bunch of shit which I've fed,
All "I love you" I've said,
All my given soul's bread...
Burn in hell and get the fuck out!
Then you'll realise how It is without,
Without my sun in the fields of doubt...
You'll be the victim - never found...
And then I'll wake up from this shadow,
And I'll try to throw you like me somehow...
I'll be the last which puts out the candle...

(And don't think that I couldn't handle bitch!!! )

[Jay_Cross [7th sun]]

The Spring

Yellow spring crushed into my head
I thought that I'll become a dead
But It was like a fresh breathe
So exciting and full of heat
Everywhere in the fields and streets
It fills the earth and breeds
Like a campfire - so cousy and worm
Forses to become another life form
Sun shows It's face behind the clouds
Gives a colour for those invisble crowds
Slowly from above straigth into my face
Making happy all of my days
Making the other's life not so dark
Making It complete like a chart
So sunny, so happy and so unreal
That's the way how we feel
Those spring changes
The new life's pages
Everyone knows that It came
Everywhere It flashes like insane
Leaves the green grass behind
And deleted memories in my mind
All over and over and over again
From the start till the end
All sentences I said
All hungry minds I fed
All bastards I saw
All of them into the dough
All good people I let down
All of them I let to drown
Spring's sun burnt them somehow
So I can release my fist for now
The winter is gone and It won't come back
The season ended when everybody wear black
It's a new life and start
when we hear the earth's heart
And everything around us becomes alive
when every being stops to hide
And stands up with honor and pride
When all we see the last tide

[I don't want to believe that everything's so fucked up and the life's so poor]

[Jay_Cross [7th sun]]

The Brain Cancer

When you hear the footsteps by the door,
When you're in the ivisible mind war...
That feelings kill you slowly,
Hurts when you're so lonely...
Cuz all your friends ran away...
Paranoya in your head asks - "Were they?"

Waking up in the morning sun...
The day has just started, but you're done...
You don't want to live anymore...
Everyday to you is a fucking whore...
Sinking in the shit deeper and deeper...
What do you see by your door - is It a creeper?
And why everybody fucks you up?
Maybe they know the real truth - You suck...

Nobody likes me, nobody wants me...
Should I just hook up on the tree?
Or should I live and eat you all?!
Blow my brain before yours on the red wall...
Maybe It's not worth this silly fight?
Maybe all is not here, not in the light...
Should I just give up and lie here?
Or should I just close my eyes and act fair?
I must say about this massive sickness...
I must forget this cancer illness...
But I have to let you know about that...
I don't have to fall down and become a rat...

When the paranoya is everything you have left,
Fall from the edge into your brain depth...
Shoot the stars in your eyeballs,
Fly into the mystic balck holes...
Cuz you're almost mad and fallen down!!!
Your confused mind is nearly to drown...
In the dark and freezing water...
In the canals of your tired brain quarters...
Never ask somebody to help you,
When blood leaks from your nose's delta...
Just live and try to forget...
Don't be affraid of the death...
It's no need to cry...
Cuz we all die...
Just fight this invisble war...
I know It sometimes sore...
Have the hope in your hand and don't hide...
Still in the end you can say: "At least I tried..."
Don't give up in the middle of this crew...
I can't say, I can't help to end It to you...
But I'll always cross my fingers...
I'll always try to back up and ginger...
We all fight micro wars in our life,
We all are the same part of this fuckin' hive...
So don't think about your last days...
When you'll see the magic dark fays...
Don't cry and fear in any case...
Try to put a smile into your face...

[It's for everyone who fight the war inside and outside]

[Jay_Cross [7th sun]]

The Memories

All for nothing when I'm dreaming
Bad memories and ghosts when I'm sleeping
They can't touch and break my head
They can't make me dead
How comes the faith before the fear
Why It's so ivisible and I can't hear
Where's the truth and light
Which are in the other side
Of never ending game
Behind the secret tame
Out of your sick mind
Somwhere you can't find
Nobody holds It, nobody knows the rid
Nobody knows where does It fit
In the abandoned cities and villages
Hiding those dark images
So hard to escape from it
So easy to fall into the mind split
Slowly breakin' through your patience
Killing week and vain imaginations
Comes to you and runs away
Thoughts like bullets in the gunfight day

I don't wanna lose them in the chaos...
I don't wanna be a victim, a prayer...
Just want to bring back what is mine...
Those moments when we were young in the starshine...
Not in the sicknes and starve
Not in the life's charm
Those moments which forse to live
Not to hide and shiver
From yourself and ask when It will finally end
When you won't have to be stupid and pretend
The man you'll never be
The son you'll never see
Miserable life and lost years
Broken dreams and everything that scares
Will hurt you more and more
Will break trough your closed door

And the only thing that keeps you on the feet
That never let's your broken heart to bleed
That pushes into the good feeling sea
That always offers you a key
From that iron box inside
Thousands of times you tried
To open and get lost
To become your own host
Memories - they are
That irreversible scar
It can be such a cute form
Unless so lovely and warm
Maybe killing like a war
Or something even more

So keep It in your head
Everything you did and said
The all good reasons to love you
The all bad reasons to be above you
Don't try to escape from your past
catch everything that goes fast
Faster than you and try to understand
why you're here and not in the Deadland
Why you breathe and have this gift
Why the God doesn't look for a shift
Just live and don't forget
The time you spent, the time you had

[we all know about the time's source and It's power to make us old - so let's try sometimees to look back and remember something good, something, that forses to live...]

[Jay_Cross [7th sun]]

Cmon people! Post something - Is It a piece of crap or is It worth something?!!!

[Aqueous Moon]

well I read the first one...

Very good expression of emotion

not too good on the wordplay and imagery

But, I can feel the pain and passion in the words you choose.

[Jay_Cross [7th sun]]

Thanks man I'm pround that someone noticed me and said what he really thinks about my lines Really - you're right - I must do something better than that, It must have passion and logic, blood and brain, not just a view from inside Really thanks and I'll try to do something more realistic

[Jay_Cross [7th sun]]

The War

In the empty fields after men's fights...
Dead heroes sleep in blood's rivers at night...
So many bullets, so many lifes...
Dead letters, flags to their wives...
As they've chosen to protect our pride,
To serve for us and never hide...
Now so many dying out there in battlefields...
There's no one to help them and give them the shield...
All their loses, wounds can't be healed...
Young and mighty men became the gunfire yield...
"To protect our nation and never give up"
But why the God can't save them, why He can't stop?
Why their lifes are in the hands of the MOD?
It's just a prove how the system can mop,
Everything that stands in front of ambitions...
Death orders and suicide missions,
Are in their plans and fucking decisions...
As always the government left us empty dishes,
In the broken prospects and fooly wishes...
Our men fight till the last blood drop as dying species,
Sacrify their lifes for a coupule of map's teritory inches,
Just for somebody's silly desires, caprises,
Or just due to huge international pisser...
Falling into mud and closing their eyes,
Watching like shot brother dies,
Or suffers the knive in a back from the spies...
Hearing the good news or just placable lies...
So many missing, in jails or just neutralized...
Their fathers and mothers cried when recognised,
Their children killed in cold blood, raped, defiled,
Without any logic reason or thrown new light...
They won't be here no more,
They fought simply cruel wars...
No matter why and what for,
They lie now in the fields and shores...
But we know those actual heroes,
Those who died not just for somebody's credo,
But for liberty, our home and our land's tillers...
They aren't just some casualties - they all are the winners,
All have won the game of life for us...
Showed man's honor and beacame the dust...
Now in the better place than every was,
In rememberance and always in our hearts...

[It's for the men who everyday risk their lives for us and for G.W. Bush ]

[Jay_Cross [7th sun]]

The Hood War

Sunshine slowly slides down the road
Behind the walls and cars soldiers tryin' to reload
In the wild rock jungle amainly tryin' to float
In the chaos of fire, in this insane world
Dancing with Ak's, Colt's and Beretta's
Making revenges and bloody vendetta's
Blowing up BMW's, Mercedes's, Corvettes's
Shit, they don't know what for is this deadness
when It stared nobody knows
In the streets and gardens lying dead rows
Shots blasted, grenades, then suppressing light shows
Blowing up brothers, In their bodies shatter balls
Bang! And they're sleepin' with bullet holes
In the blood rivers, lost soul fields, death wind howls
There's another day ending in the moonlight
In the explosions, fires and strange urban fight
where's the one who will stop this, who's bright?
Who will take a white flag and suffer the slight?
I guess he's already dead under the overpass
Like other his homies dreaming the dream on the grass
Out of the world of wars, lies, betrayals and broken glass
Out of the slavery for the politicians and the upper class
Now in a ghetto worship, crying for them in the high Mass
For our killed innocent sons and daughters
Our families - pretty sisters and brave brothers
When is our turn, who will be the another?
Killed on the way home to loving mother
Or just shot by another street's gang's border
Everyday our children suffer this fuckin' slaughter
Eating their last bread, drinking their last water
why they're fighting for nothing, making this life shorter?
Now the music we hear is just the battlefield's flautist
walking trough the graveyard of our fallen workers
So many genius's lost like a simple running order
2pac was one of them, could live much longer
But the bullets had chosen him like death's prision warder
And now he's in the better place like we all want to trust
The prove of human's resistance and mighty word's just
Became the legend and left us
But he isn't special - man like we all
We aren't slaves, nobody's woo - doo dolls
Just life's warriors, feeling hate & choler
Living and dying for fuckin' humanity
Keepin' up the balance and gravity
Protectin' what is our's, what is fair
You won't destroy It, so don't even dare

[You know that It IS, don't deny It - It's pointless... The peace needs victims...]

[Jay_Cross [7th sun]]

There are all my 'pearls' except "The Spring" - shame. Real MC wouldn't write anything like that, so please, don't pay attention to that one, ok? I don't know I just wrote It for entertainment.

[Jay_Cross [7th sun]]

I'd be the happiest man in this fuckin' world, If somebody paid me some attention! PLZ??? Why I must be the only one fool that reads as many posts as he can?!!! Just for myself I think...

[Locust]

The Hood War

Sunshine slowly slides down the road
Behind the walls and cars soldiers tryin' to reload
In the wild rock jungle amainly tryin' to float
In the chaos of fire, in this insane world
Dancing with Ak's, Colt's and Beretta's
Making revenges and bloody vendetta's
Blowing up BMW's, Mercedes's, Corvettes's
Shit, they don't know what for is this deadness
when It stared nobody knows
In the streets and gardens lying dead rows
Shots blasted, grenades, then suppressing light shows
Blowing up brothers, In their bodies shatter balls
Bang! And they're sleepin' with bullet holes
In the blood rivers, lost soul fields, death wind howls
There's another day ending in the moonlight
In the explosions, fires and strange urban fight
where's the one who will stop this, who's bright?
Who will take a white flag and suffer the slight?
I guess he's already dead under the overpass
Like other his homies dreaming the dream on the grass
Out of the world of wars, lies, betrayals and broken glass
Out of the slavery for the politicians and the upper class
Now in a ghetto worship, crying for them in the high Mass
For our killed innocent sons and daughters
Our families - pretty sisters and brave brothers
When is our turn, who will be the another?
Killed on the way home to loving mother
Or just shot by another street's gang's border
Everyday our children suffer this fucin' slaughter
Eating their last bread, drinking their last water
why they're fighting for nothing, making this life shorter?
Now the music we hear is just the battlefield's flautist
walking trough the graveyard of our fallen workers
So many genius's lost like a simple running order
2pac was one of them, could live much longer
But the bullets had chosen him like death's prision warder
And now he's in the better place like we all want to trust
The prove of human's resistance and mighty word's just
Became the legend and left us
But he isn't special - man like we all
We aren't slaves, nobody's woo - doo dolls
Just life's warriors, feeling hate & choler
Living and dying for fuckin' humanity
Keepin' up the balance and gravity
Protectin' what is our's, what is fair
You won't destroy It, so don't even dare

[You know that It IS, don't deny It - It's pointless... The peace needs victims...]

nice concept, most of it had good imagery, some forced lines couldve been left out such as the ''Blowing up Corvettes'' part, but its all good.. i didnt like the end though, about tupacs death and shit.. it just didnt fit imo..

[Jay_Cross [7th sun]]

2pac's story is like - what happens everyday - just he, the man who was well known, is the prove. Think - how many brothers die everyday and nobody cares. I wanted to say that he was a man like we all - he wasn't special to God, to Devil, so - he went away. It's just a bloody ilustration of the truth... Called the order of the street life... Thnkx. - I knew all about that so It hasn't taken much time and vocabulary to write It. Thank you!

PEACE

R.I.P. 2pac and big L

[Jay_Cross [7th sun]]

New shit's coming up! Any voice is worth all of my attention!

R.W.S.

Hello It's my sight
'Bout life, distant heights
Better days, bright
People, who lived at night
In the separate site
Of the world's dight
But shoutin' like dynamite
Into your slight, despite
Fightin' the endless fight
Army of the mandicant
Telling the truth kind
Crossing the mind
Me, my werd calcimine
Into your home of spite
The hindsight file
One new tile, you imbecile
In your hardware satelite
A mastermind for blind
Antichrist for Hitlerites
Writin' my bites, pain, delight
Uprisin' like a flight
Of a kite for mankind fight
Against the demons inside
Holding our souls tight
Killin' slowly like drug diet
You can stop the homicide-
Smite It back wide
Don't commit a suicide
If you're weak, affraid of sodomite
Named evil, you can smite
The final punch, excite
Your abide - don't hide
It's your compromise
We have It and utilise
Against or for the good side
A choice or ilusion of superfine
Ways to resist with style
Some skills and vile
Those elements - five
Have them in a hive
Deep brain rind
Technique which leaves behind
Crap you had to grind
Fucked up days in mind
Just let's to wind
The right drive
In your eyesight
That light kite
Hearth's might
Just the way to deffend
A knive in a hand
A mine in the sand
Keep up, my friend
It's the end