CCabsinthe's Birthday

[CCabsinthe02]

CCabsinthe (June 17, 1984 - Aug. 6, 2004)
Please see Birthday thread

This was CCabsinthe's last post on Aug. 5, 2004:

Liscensed 4 Suicide

Visualize the innocence of bullets spread through my common sense/
My conscience is tormented by all the sins in my life I can't forget/
Its nonsense that I've been on this runaway train since childhood/
Never understood why I was drawn in the struggle of evil vs. good/
Cuz in my mind, I'm detrimental to my own survival/
Reality is my rival, tendencies of being suicidal/
I live to die in this jungle built on concrete grounds/
Died multiple times from all the rounds that I emptied out/
Into my brain, like the chemical imbalances/
That make me unable to face life's challenges/
I'm sliding towards rock bottom on heaven's golden banisters/
Suicide or cancer, which one I will outlive, no need to answer/
But to me, my destiny is to be forever miserable/
Constant headaches, fuck tylenol, I'd rather take some kind of dope/
Lost words unspoken, no omen to follow someone holy and chosen/
I am just a concept, in this life of schizophrenic optics/
They haunt me constant, I'm a time-ticking bomb threat/
All this shit is a tragedy, why must I continue battline/
Meddling with my fate, hate of poison venom from the snake/
I must admit, my death will be with honor/
Like a motherfucking lunatic, slash suicidal bomber/

[100pr00f]

pretty deep...post some more when u get a chance

[GuardianOne]

Yah and who is this Ccabsinthe? And how was Ccabsinthe death? Anyway its a difficult verse to examine- since it has some direct history already portrayed at the start of the verse.

Peace

[SHRAP]

his name was CCabsinthe02. absinthe is some drug or somethin never fucked with it. he was one of my dojo brethren. he was a dark motherfucker always spittin about suicide and shit like that. unfortunately he apparently had so much of that type of energy in him that the rhymin didnt save him. i guess nobody helped him man. he disappeared for months then his account was used again, by his brother who made a thread informing us of his suicide

[martyr]

.... i remember this kid... i saw this coming from a mile away... i remember when i dissed the forum he was one of the ones i dissed though i think it was after his death... peace to you in the afterlife... cause all hopes fall....

[PsYkOsUs]

his name was CCabsinthe02. absinthe is some drug or somethin never fucked with it. he was one of my dojo brethren. he was a dark motherfucker always spittin about suicide and shit like that. unfortunately he apparently had so much of that type of energy in him that the rhymin didnt save him. i guess nobody helped him man. he disappeared for months then his account was used again, by his brother who made a thread informing us of his suicide

there's nothin' you can do to stop someone from endin' their own life... there really is no way to understand why somebody does it, or even comprehend how they feel... one of my best friends committed suicide, and believe me, you just gotta accept the fact that they'd have probably done it no matter what...

PEACE

PSY

[100pr00f]

some peeps can be help. tho.... i helped my boy .....and he is happy for that...he is still around to day...he is making some thing of his life now...

[Ebo]

I remember this too, he was real active in the forum, always spitting. He had some good skills.
R.i.p.

[002]

R.I.P. C. peace

[GuardianOne]

That's sad, but really you can't respect someone for commiting suicide (well that's just an African tradition). But in all due respect- iam sorry to hear of this (i used to notice some other guys banners with the same message). People should not do such things, but its difficult to stop people when they set such a motive. SAD isn't it? Lets trust no one here in the tmple thinks or does that. But we all have our own problems.
And i have a splitting tooth ache ( i need to get that tooth removed). And iam trying to concerntrate on making a instrumental for this other guy.

[Killer Falcon]

ccabsinthe was an amazing writer when he was on here. it was a shame that not that many people actually read his work, as he was easily one of the most talented on here. i still dont think i've read anyone elses verses which have held the same amount of emotion as his did. the imagery he used expressed what he was feeling very well. he actually influenced and inspired my style to an extent in some of the work i have done, since i can relate to him to an extent.

i think he had a lot of drug problems, with crack and other stuff. i dont know whether he could've been helped or not, is not really for me to say.

RIP ccabsinthe

peace

[TUCO]

rest in peace brother
no doubt....still miss ya

PEACE

[martyr]

....i'm just curious, how did this fellow commit suicide?... just curious...