Originally Posted by
TommySuits
I fought an addiction for the last 3 years or so. Prescription pills, pain killers especially. Started off just selling them and i myself never touched them. I could get the blue perc 30's for around $20 and sell for $35. Around here you can sell them for $40 if you're a real piece of shit and I've been told up in the cape cod area you could get away with $50 which is nuts.
Like I said initially I never touched them. I would go out and occasionally do some Coke on those nights. Well someone told me that when coming down on Coke if you take a piece of a perc 30 it gets rid that shitty coming down feeling comepetely. Then I started taking adderrals at work, wknds whatever. Coming down off adderral I would take a perc then when I got too tired I took another adderral. Back and forth back and forth. it became a routine. If I was going out meeting new girls I would take an adderral and kill it. If I was about to splash some chick I would take a perc so I could fuck like Peter north and last all night. At first I thought I was the president when I was geeking on adderral. Felt like superman at work. Financially I never had a problem with the drugs because I was selling them but it ruined my relationship of 5 years and some opportunities work wise. I got too caught up in the percs and it made me a different person. Very irritable, emotionally I wasn't there for my chick and that crashed and burned. I would easily get annoyed and set off. We would fight, she would get upset and I didn't care about a thing.
I started off with the mentality that I work hard and I like to play hard too. Well I slowly got sucked into a routine that was a nightmare to get out of. I never thought I would be one of those people. Downers never really did it for me but when I found out they took care of the coming down feeling of the uppers is when I got hooked. It kills me now when I think of when me ex was crying shaking me asking what the hell happened to me & why I've become so cold and heartless. It wasn't until I was so far in that I realized how much it changed me and I missed the old me...a lot of people did.
I've never been this open and honest with anyone about this. I just thought I'd share my experience. I could write for days about everything just be careful everyone. No matter what you tell yourself eventually the drugs do get you if use like I did.
Peace peace peace.
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