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thanks for sharing, Crow.
this is my experience as i remember from the night - Saturday night/Sunday morning, when i took 4.8 grams by myself.
first of all, i tripped off the same shrooms a week ago, saturday with 3 friends. but i only took about a half eight (1.7 grams) and it was a recreational trip with friends, music nad all the extra shit
the shrooms were VERY STRONG and we all sat and tripped balls together. my friends went for a walk for about 20 minutes and i stayed in the living room by myslef cause i like trippin gby myself.
we sat and listened to Red Hot Chili Peppers's, "By The Way" album. dope shit.
this past weekend though, i didnt have anything planned, so i decided early in the day to eat the shrooms ive been holding for a while. i had bought a half oz and was holding on to it instead of selling it to other people , as usual.
i went next door and got a $10 bag of chronic for the trip and sat and watched Terrence Mckenna. i had planned to eat the other half of the eigth that i had left over from the last weekend, but while wathching the video decided to do what i always wanted to do,a nd have a high dose trip - 5 grams atleast.
i ate 7 grams in silent darkness before, but the shrooms were really WEAK and the shit was uneventful.
i started at about 2:10,
So i was eating the shrooms (raw with only pepsi and sweet tea. lol thats all we had) and by the time i got done eating 4.5 grams i was already feeling the effects throughout my body, and heavy in my stomach. i was already tripping. and it had been like 15 mins since i started eating them shits. lol. strong ass shit.
i went in the other bag and grabbed a shroom and threw it on the scale. lol. it weiged .3. i needed a .5 gram joint but i didnt go back in the bag cause i was tripping so hard already and had no energy (LOL). so i just ate that shit.
but the time i got done it was 2:30 AM. i was already feeling it LOL. strong ass shit.
then i turned off th youtube video and smoked a bowl of chronic.
i was tripping before i got done smoking. i killed the bowl quickly, put down the pipe and layed back on my bed.
i had the lights off and no music on. the only sound was the buzz from the fan in the bathroom (i live on campus and our bedrooms have small bathrooms in them)
i was feeling it all over my body and felt the negative effects of a psychedelic trip coming on. i was scared, nervous, felt like i took too much, felt like i should put on some music or do something to quell the heavy ass trip that was coming on.
i sat and told my self the strong ass trip was what i wanted.
i layed on my side, fluffed my pillow, and face dthe wall to my right - like i was about to watch a TV show. i distincivly remember thinking these thoughts.
then the trip started.
i had my eyes closed but i remember thinking to my self that it didnt matter if i had my eyes shit or not. i was seeing the same things.
the usual shroom visuals. but faster. much faster.
it looked liek designs on an egyptian, mosaic carpet - the colors were sharp purple, and a dark blue and a faint dark green
crazy.
the visuals kept speeding up (going in circles) as i focused on them and i felt like if i kept looking at it i would voyage off into another dimension, sort of to speak. increasing in speed the more i focused on them. and i felt like the energy was steadily sucking me up. if i kept focusing i would be totally "vacuumed" up and have a out-of-body experience.
i was actually sure of this.
i also kept seeing BRIGHT WHITE LIGHTS IN THE BOTTOM OF MY VISUAL. it was like somebosy was fflashing a pure white flash light at the lower part of the back of my eye lids.
a britght WHITE light in the midst of total darkness and mosaic colours and designs.
amazing.
i knew i should focus on this but i couldnt. i was tripping too hard.
i felt like i was toying with it and kept focusing and then letting when i felt like i was in the brink of getting sucked into it.
the visuals and the feelinfgs were so real that i felt like if i let my self go, i would never come back. so i prevented my mind from doing so.
(i have been regretting this, ever since.)
i though of Syd Barrett and thought to myself that this was how he went crazy and never came back, for sure - i was convinced.
i felt like i was capable of telepathy. i was sure.
i thought of friends - girls who i had feelings for but never told them and what they would be thinking of me at the moment.
i felt like they were thinking about me at the same exact time.
this happened with thoughts of my parents too.
i comtemplated death. this was what i thought of nad got out of the trip.
i felt like i was experiencing what death is like when our physical dies. i cant really explain this, but if uve had a trip like this im sure u know...
i also felt like i had died for a while, and thinking/realizing this is how it is when we die. (the state of mind and the experience)
i felt like i was looking at the collective consciousness.
then i felt like an entity was mad as fuck with me for toying with the shrooms and having a playful attitude about the trip.
i tried to rely to it that i was sincere and not playin games.
i felt better.
i need to add that throughout the trip, at time i would feel scared as fuck and shit, and then all of the sudden i would feel intense joy, peaece, and love from a female entity. (i had the same experience in my last failed high dose trip.)
At one point, i suddenly becane HIGHLY ATTENTIVE, and at that moment, i felt like an entity communicated with me. it tried to relay to me that it was all powerful and that it was a sort of God. i actually remember being told "IM GOD" in an angry voice. my eyes opened wide and i was in shock.
it relayed how i shouldnt be playing games and i should be ashamed or something for trying to find answers to life and the universe when im not ready and sincere.
i sat for a little bit more.
i felt the warp again trying to pull me up.
i resisted. (ive been regretting ever since)
i got up and grabbed my mp3 player. the trip was getting too powerful for me and i wanted somethign to take my mind off my mind, so to speak LOL
i played some alternative music.
i snapped out of the trip about 15-20 minutes later and sobered up fast as fuck.
i spent the morning smoking the rest of my weed and listening to Jim Morrison's "An American Prayer". that shit is crazy lol
conclusions: what i was/have been looking for was in the warp that was attempting to suck me up and if i let my self go i would have had an out of body experience.
i will attempt this again soon and will submit to the trip completely.
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